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I
was in this dilemma one day. I had two submissions that day. One is my
geography assignment the other my biology pre-lab sheet.
I
spent the night before doing the geography assignment. To my surprise it took
the whole night to finish that 4 pages assignment. I slept around 2 o’clock
that night.
There was no hope left for me to finish up the pre-lab. I was ready to let go of this one. I opened the course assessment scheme to see how much the pre-lab worth of the total grade (I’m that desperate). It worth only 2%. Oh, I think it is okay to drop that just 2%. Plus, as I’m calculating the circumstances there is no way I could made it on time. You need to draw a graph, calculating stuffs that you don’t know (because it was told to me by a friend that the question is hard), there is definitely no way I can have it done.
There was no hope left for me to finish up the pre-lab. I was ready to let go of this one. I opened the course assessment scheme to see how much the pre-lab worth of the total grade (I’m that desperate). It worth only 2%. Oh, I think it is okay to drop that just 2%. Plus, as I’m calculating the circumstances there is no way I could made it on time. You need to draw a graph, calculating stuffs that you don’t know (because it was told to me by a friend that the question is hard), there is definitely no way I can have it done.
I
woke up with a different feeling that morning.
I
stop and think. I was thinking about the thought that I had last night. I just
felt that it just wasn’t right. It is wrong for me to think in that way.
Astaghfirullah.
I
convinced myself that I just associating Allah last night. It might sound harsh
but for me that is the reality. Nauzubillah!
That
morning I realized that my decision to stop pulling my efforts to have the
pre-lab done just due to the circumstances that I faced is so wrong. I actually
just made a tawakkal to the circumstances. Not to Allah. I started believing
that the circumstances actually had the power to withhold me. When none has the
power except Allah S.W.T.
I
was awakened.
I
grabbed the pre-lab sheet and start doing it. I used every single instance that
I had. Before the geography tutorial started I spent time to do it until the TA
actually started to talk. The tutorial ended early, extra time for me to
continue. Next, I need to rush for the biology lecture. The writing continued
until the lecturer actually started the class. After the class, I had just
one-hour left before my lab. Making it more difficult, I also need to pray zuhr
within that one hour.
I
sat down on a sitting bench just outside the lecture hall. I need to get it
done. I’ve looked to the last question that I had no single clue on how to
solve. To my surprise, as I made my third or fourth look, it just came to me on
how to actually solve the question. It is actually so easy to do. Subhanallah.
I was flabbergasted. I made it done just before the call for zuhr.
I
rushed to the prayer room and made the congregation. Then I went for the lab
session.
I
made it!
……………………
We
always belittled so many thoughts in our life.
Often
it made us fell short into misery and despairs. We know about rububiyyah and
uluhiyyah of God. Most people will find no trouble in rububiyyah of God. But we
always failed to fully comprehend the uluhiyyah of God. What is the right of
God upon us or everything from us that is made obligation from us for God.
Our
sensitivity, priority, mindfulness, hope, fear, tawakkal and many more.
We
must be conscious. God conscious. So that we
do not make mistake in associating God in our life.
The 'tauhid' of God is our power. It set us free. Like a bird flying through the limitless of the sky. Wandering without fear. With tauhid, we become strong. None has the power to stop us except that what God has permitted.
……………………
Alhamdulillah
on that day I also received back my previous geography assignment I scored
20/20.
La
Haula Wa La Quwwata Illa Billah.
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